Monday, October 25, 2010

THE SWEETEST CRY




The sweetest cry I heard after twenty nine years, the cry of an angel , a gift from heaven, a new life , The cry of my first born grand daughter .October 22, 2007 the very day she was given to our family, for me no words can express the feelings of a first time grand mother especially I too heard her first cry when she was born,Ralph my son in law very kind to allow me to hear her first cry THANK YOU MY DEAREST SON for doing it for me , john and chay and I can say really that at that moment I too was able to appreciate the mobile phone, with this modern technology I was able to embrace her in my mind and to appreciate gods mercy and blessings for my family, for giving me a healthy baby girl and for giving me back my daughter melody. when you are carrying a baby in your womb you are also risking your life for your child thats why being a mother is not easy , the moment you are in labor your life too is on hold at risk , thats why without God's mercy we are nothing he is the only one who can give life and who can take it away from us. Its not easy to give birth in a country where everything is new and everybody are still starting to know each other.I'm really proud of my daughter for being strong and for being a first time mother, and im very proud she have prepared herself and the baby by being careful and conscious of what can make the baby more healthy inside her womb CONGRATULATIONS!!!! both of you now that the baby is born your are entrusted with a new life and that is one of your mission here on earth.
I really cried at that moment the joy and happiness I felt for both of my girls and I know that someday i will be able to carry her in my arms to hold her and smell her to see her smile and to show my love for her. I'm very excited for that day to come . She is in America and I'm in the Philippines and I know i will still see her smile and walk and dance and sing It would be the most wonderful day of my life to see my next generation and to see that the love I have for keeping my two daugther with me is frutful and have brought them up and stayed with them. I know that somehow i have taught them the value and the importance of being parent, to be around their kids as they grow. A parent has a choice to be with their children and I happen to choose to stay . For me in my own opinion and what I believe in , not even money is reason enough to be away from them. As I have said God, love, faith and trust and my parents and family is all I need to be able to carry them both whether the road is bumpy or not whether I will fall to the ground and when I do , I will make sure that when I get up from the ground , I'm still carrying both of them at my back And God gave me parents, who during my journey was always there for me as God was redirecting my life too and never left me .
My daughter melody really surprised me becuase she never show inclination that she adores children coz when she was still young and single she is not a hands on person when it comes to kids and cooking, and sewing things around the house but I didnt know that in her heart she will be when her turn comes and to be a homely type mother just like me, I know now that i didnt fail them as a mother although I feel sometimes my all is not enough and how I wish I could have given them more . I love my children over and over again, even when there are times im sensitive and angry love never left my heart for them . all my life all I wanted is to make them happy to be with me all ways ans i have to fight so many obstacles too many scrifices made jsut to keep them with me. Thats why without Gods help and mercy and also it was a blessing and I'm lucky to have also parents like tatay and nanay to go through all that. Looking back from all those bumpy roads I can say God loves me too much.
But a warning to both of you dont put your children above Jesus , Dont be too occupied with the raising and thier needs that you put Jesus aside . And all you think 7 dyas a week and and 12 months in a year are only focused to the needs of your children. Remember Our mission frst is to love God above everything and anyone. Love , patience, tactful words, kindness, a happy attitude , understanding and a smile is hard to do all together but practice makes perfect........I may not have been able to do this for you in my time all together but you and your sister gave me too much joy and too much to live for ....... and now " KAITLYN I LOVE YOU THE MOMENT YOUR MOTHER CONCEIVE YOU , AND YOU ARE A PART OF ME , YOU ARE MY FLESH AND BLOOD YOU ARE MY FIRST GRAND DAUGHTER AND NO MATTER HOW MANY MORE BABIES WILL COME TO OUR FAMILY MY LOVE IS DESIGN ONLY FOR YOU .......KAITLYN AND WHEN YOU HAVE A SISTER OR A BROTHER IN THE FUTURE ANOTHER LOVE WITLL BE DESIGN FOR THEM ALSO . I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART