TURNING FIFTY

A CHANGE THAT EVERYONE HAS TO UNDERGO, SOME WELCOME IT, SOME IN DENIAL, SOME JUST FLOW WITH IT. IN MY PART A LOT OF CHANGES HAPPENED NOT JUST PHYSICALLY , BUT ALSO EMOTIONALLY AND OF COURSE YOUR OUTLOOK IN LIFE BECOMES MORE WITH MEANING AND WITH SENSE. YOUR WISDOM IS MORE RELIABLE AND YOU SEE LIFE DIFFERENTLY. YOU WILL FIND THAT YOU ENJOY FEW THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE BEFORE BUT NOW YOU FIND IT MORE MEANINGFUL . ONE OF THE MANY CHANGES IS YOUR CHARACTER YOU BECOME MORE CALM IN YOUR DECISION MAKING AND YOUR CHARACTER BECOME MORE SETTLED . WHEN IT COMES TO STYLING AND FASHION YOU BECOME MORE PRESENTABLE AND RESPECTFUL RATHER THAN BEING FASHIONABLE , WELL THERE ARE FEW EXCEPTIONS THERE ARE OTHERS WHO BECOME MORE EXPRESSIVE IN THEIR FEELINGS, STYLE AND CHARACTER. THE TENDENCY TO COME OUT OF THEIR SHELL , IT'S LIKE GETTING OUT OF THEIR SHELLS AFTER A LONG WAIT.
OTHERS FOCUSED MORE ON THEMSELVES BECAUSE FOR THEM IT'S LIKE A REWARD AND IT'S TIME TO TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES AFTER FORGETTING ABOUT THEM WHILE THE CHILDREN ARE GROWING UP, GOING TO COLLEGE AND SINCE THEY FEEL THEIR RESPONSIBILITIES IS OVER. BUT DOES IT REALLY END THERE?.... I DON'T THINK SO WHEN U ACCEPT TO BECOME A MOTHER THERE IS NO RESIGNATION AT ANY AGE WHEN YOU DIE AND MAYBE AFTER LIFE YOU STILL DO WHAT A MOTHER DOES.I REALIZED IT NOW LOOKING AT MY 2ND GRANDCHILD WITH MY ELDEST DAUGHTER. SHE IS A SINGLE MOTHER AND THE MORE I FEEL SHE NEEDS ME NOT JUST HELPING HER TO TAKE CARE OF HER DAUGHTER WHILE SHE LOOKS FOR WORK BUT , SHE NEEDS MY WISDOM , THE VERY LESSONS I LEARNED IN LIFE, TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND THAT SOMETIMES THERE ARE TIMES AND DAYS IN LIFE THAT IS DIFFICULT AND THAT WE SHOULD NOT BE CARRIED AWAY WITH OUR EMOTIONS THAT WILL LEAD HER TO A WRONG CHOICE .
HOW I WISH WITH ALL MY HEART I WAS THERE FOR MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER WHEN SHE DELIVERED HER BABY KAITLYN. AS A MOTHER THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS I REGRET IS MY NOT BEING WITH HER, BESIDE HER AT THE START OF THE MARRIAGE AND DURING HER FIRST TIME BEING A MOTHER , SHE IS A STRONG WOMAN, WE OFTEN DISAGREE OVER THINGS BUT I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART, THEY ARE THE REASON FOR MY SURVIVAL IN LIFE, THEY ARE THE REASON FOR MY CHANGE FOR CHOOSING TO BE A BETTER AND NOT STOP TRYING TO BE A GOOD MOTHER , TO ENDURE THE PAIN AND FRUSTRATIONS IN LIFE AND TO DO MY ALL NOT JUST MY BEST BUT ALL THAT I CAN POSSIBLY DO, BUT ALL OF WHAT I HAVE DONE WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE IF NOT GODS LOVE FOR ME AND FOR GRANTING THE PRAYERS OF MY PARENTS WHO PRAYED HARD FOR MY BETTERMENT IN LIFE AND NEVER GAVE UP ON ME... BEING FIFTY IS NOT IN THE MIDDLE BUT I SEE IT AS A START , A BEGINNING OF ANOTHER CHANCE IN LIFE.