My Childhood Days

Looking back and remembering my childhood years now fills me with mixed emotions. Rewinding slowly is like watching an invisible television show of yourself, questions before that only now you can answer and always " THE WHY" and the "I COULD HAVE DONE THESE AND THAT". As a person grow older , the more she tends to look back and the more she examines carefully what was her past and the present and only the present holds the key to the future always with God in your heart, they say that it's better to move forward, I don't disagree with this but it's always good to look back then moving forward will be much easier and more effective whether your past childhood is a happy one , or tragic one, or painful. Still it remains that to look back is not to linger with the emotions of the past but to help you achieved to better yourself and for you to be able to correct and to mend anything that holds you back in becoming a happy person and to love other people than yourself. Family plays a very important role in my life , there are moments in my past that I did not understand my other family members way of handling me when I was a child and only now I know the perfect answer to that and realizing that love was there when they did that to me as a child.

What was I like as a child? hmmmmm!!!! since I'm the youngest of four , the eldest being a girl and next my only brother and the next is a girl, you can say I'm the baby to my nanay ( mother) I always believed this until now. My siblings always and even now claimed that I'm the favorite of my mother, maybe they think that because during the leisure time of my parents I'm the entertainer he! he! he! As far as I can remember I really love dancing so much,and my parents and my relatives always make me dance during celebrations and I was always the entertainer and every time I see a mirror if I remember it right I think I was only 5 years old at that time , the miror was always my first teacher, dancing in front of the mirror and trying to copy the dance steps I have seen from the adults and looking at my facial expression if i look nice with the step I'm trying to learn and if I can't get the step right away i stamp on my feet almost loosing my patience but i never stop until i get it right . So as a child, dancing was always my passion, it gives me too much joy and happiness inside and out. Ever since i was a child each time i hear a music i feel it in my heart and when i dance it's not just merely listening to the music but feeling it inside. My is mother always there to teach me to use my eyes , my smile and my shoulders to make me more graceful. iI have always enjoyed my childhood specially the noontime breaks when our mother tells u to sleep ha! ha ! ha !ha which by the way me and my sister and my cousins never do . After lunch time my mom always have her routine nap in the afternoon and she always make me and my sister sleep with her but we pretend to sleep and when we see she is already in deep sleep we and my other cousin also in there own house also did the same and we meet outside in front of our house and there we start our afternoon play which is eating and chewing gum until the sweetness are all gone and ready to be use as a paste to catch dragon flies. We have to stand still in front of the narrow canal and use a long stick to and stick the gum in it and wait without making any body movement under the heat of the sun and wait for the dragon flies to stick to the gum and when the clock stirkes 4, a bell would sound and we run upstairs and lie down pretending to sleep and yawn as if we just woke up and my mother will always ask why both of u smell like we were under the sun for hours ? ha! ha! ha! and you know what she never caught us ha! ha! ha! But when we became teenagers we told her and she just laughed.